To those of you for whom Mother’s Day hurts, I’m so sorry. I have been there. I’m still there a little today. I mother children who aren’t biologically mine, who I still have a long way to go with in regards to “connecting” with them because sometimes adoption is hard. And I’ll never forget how infertility made Mother’s Day so painful before Everly. Those scars run deep.
Truthfully I have little else to say other than I’m sorry. But I didn’t feel like I could remain silent either, knowing so many of you are suffering today. So today, I offer solidarity and fervent prayers for those of you who woke up today with so much heartache for whatever reason – you long to be a mama, or you’ve lost your own mama or a child who made you a mama. Know that I see you. You are not alone today.
It’s ok not to be ok today. Stay in bed. Cry in the shower. Buy all the things online. Do whatever you need to do to make it til tomorrow. Hold on, sister. The sun will rise with new mercies. And also, it won’t be Mother’s Day anymore.
But, dear sister, in your sadness, I pray you can find joy right where you are. That Jesus would meet you in your grief and that you would recognize that the only way out of the trenches? Is the Gospel. Today, all day long, I whisper prayers to the Father that you would feel His presence and rest in Him. That in your brokenness you would turn to Him for healing. That ultimately you would find your hope in Him and not in any earthly thing. “But I will hope continually and will praise you yet more and more.” (Psalm 71:14)
For my infertility sisters, I also pray such big prayers that He would grant you the deep desire of your heart for a baby, and that His dream for your family, whatever that looks like, would become your dream too.
And for my fellow foster/adoptive mamas, the magnitude of the work you are doing leaves me only with prayers that I can hardly put into words. For strength and wisdom and so much grace.
And my prayer for all of us always? That we would hold loosely our wants, desires, and expectations in this life. May we all want Jesus more than we want anything else.