Termination for these three littles is tomorrow morning. Lord willing, they’ll get an answer to the question that weighs so heavily on their hearts. Will they stay forever? They ask and pray pretty much every day. I would so love to give them an answer other than “maybe.”
Y’all. Hear me say this: God places orphans in families. He has a plan for each and every orphan, a future entirely laid out for every kid, and that includes us or it doesn’t. But He already knows, it’s already decided, and literally NO ONE – not a judge or attorney or CPS caseworker – can change that. Not one thing, not one person, can thwart His plan. Not any circumstance can surprise Him. He loves them and us so so much. No matter how this ends, even if it hurts, our hearts couldn’t be held in any better hands. I’m not saying I understand everything He does or allows; I’m just saying that I trust Him, and that I don’t believe there is any better place to put my trust.
I don’t say these things lightly; these lessons were hard learned, hard fought for. I’ve walked through the fire with these truths in hand, and they didn’t burn to ashes or turn to dust. They held up. I got to the other side with only those truths left, all else burned away; I had nothing else to hold on to. So I held on tight. And now? Now I rest in these truths more easily than I ever did before. Truly REST, abide in the Creator of all things, the one who weaves each moment into the fabric of our lives. Praise Him for that gift.
We have been here twice now, with termination on the table; once it was just beyond our grasp and once it was accomplished. But we all know how those situations ended. Here we are again. Hope in hand. Hope for something better than their past for them.
Choosing hope is not dependent on our belief that things will go the way we wish. Sometimes? Not even close. Choosing joy is not dependent on circumstance. The hope and joy? It’s found in the choosing. The choosing to trust He is who He says He is and will do what He says He will do. That His unfailing love? It really never fails. And that our hope? He is where our hope is found.
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